British Columbia Wild Walk’n’Talks: Late-Night Airport Walker & RCMP Passenger (2024/11/06)
Transcribed from what was originally branded as Consciousness Prints Podcast Monologue 3, originally spoken on 2024/11/06 in Prince George, British Columbia, Canada.
Setting Introduction and Personality Theories
Hey, it’s me Jonathan.
As you can see, this is kind of an odd situation I’m in here, but, uh, might as well make the most of it and use it as an opportunity to talk more about stuff.
I find…here, now I have light, I’ll pause it…
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I find, that well, for one thing, walking is the best way to reflect on stuff, for me at least.
Maybe there is a difference between personality types? I don’t know. In any case, walking in general or exercising in general is good for everyone.
But anyways, walking gives my Extraverted Sensing (Se) something to focus on, I guess. Like it’s not focused on all the other possible sensory input, so it’s occupied. The “three-year-old”’s occupied, it’s playing with its toys I guess. It’s a very funny analogy. (See personalityhacker.com for more of this “Car Model” of Myers-Briggs Type Indicator cognitive function stacks).
I want to actually…well if you’re watching this, do you think there actually could be truth to this, or is all this just like, bullshit, like what I’m saying? Like all this theory, this framework, do you see any truth here?
Well in the book I was reading Beyond Rare by one of the authors of personalityjunkie.com - she’s an INFJ herself and she wrote it for INFJs because “beyond rare” as in, we have the rarest type so we can often be caught up in trying to be “special” and she encourages us to move beyond this mindset…oh crap…
I don’t want some sort of animal to jump out here. But I guess this is the kind of thing where you pray or something. I don’t know. Prayer, like, I just don’t know. God?
God, Physics, and Collective Consciousness
Like is there something more? There has to be. I don’t know. Does there though? I don’t know.
Albert Einstein - no not Albert - Stephen Hawking… I read Stephen Hawking’s A Brief History of Time and it was kind of hard to understand completely, but I think he kind of concluded that he thinks there must be a God.
And I’ve read Origin by Dan Brown. It’s very, very interesting. Like, it’s a fiction book, but talks about… well A.I. - that’s part of it - but that’s not the point. It’s about the origin, what’s the origin of the universe?
It very creatively explores that and basically also comes to the conclusion that ya, there has to be something more.
But also, you can see why people don’t think there’s something more.
And ya, it’s hard to explain but also funny: since we all have Intuition (N) in our stack, we have some form of it, you can explain spirituality or miracles or connections and patterns, and like weird revelations and whatever - you can explain it with psychology rather than religion, I guess.
But then “consciousness” I guess - the author Sam Harris, or was it Dan Harris, who said there’s consciousness collectively - there could be “collective consciousness,” and they talk about taking different drugs and then you can feel it more.
But then is that just your brain chemistry or is that actually connection? I don’t know, like what is real? What is not? What is spiritual? What is physical? What’s…
…This is a perfect setting to explore these topics.
The Midnight Walk and RCMP Dropoff
So ya, should I even explain what’s happening to me right now? I probably should because there are probably certain people that would be worried about what’s happening to me right now. But I mean, I’ll be posting this after when I’m in a different place…Ok should I keep going here?
So like for me, Introverted Intuition (Ni)…like everything’s kind of a dream for me because of my Introverted Intuition (Ni). And maybe watching my stories and videos and stuff, you could actually see how that makes sense because just like the randomness that goes on in my life - or lately at least - like I’ve allowed myself to kind of just experience life, be free with my words, and not let anything hold me back. Which ya, I know people think is like…
It’s easy to see why people think there’s something wrong with me or something, but I don’t know. Like what do you think? Like do I seem like I’m in a good and stable place? Probably not stable, but I’m finally expressing myself after years of bottling everything up and following what I’m “supposed” to do.
I guess I shouldn’t be asking random people on the internet what they think, there are professionals, but I don’t trust all the professionals…I don’t know. I should probably shut my mouth about that kind of stuff for now.
But ya, so it’s like 2:30am, Pacific Time. Pacific is UTC minus 8? Ya, ya, “Nerd!”, “Nerd!”, “Nerd!”… but like Universal Temps de… whatever.
So as you can see, I’m pulling this suitcase, so you can probably assume where I’m going. Flight’s at 5:55am. Actually you probably can’t even see, so you can’t make that assumption. Uh… this will be a fun video today…
So ya, Prince George is where I am, the outskirts at least, by the airport. I was going to go on a rant about it before. I almost did it again, but then I got stopped…
I got stopped…
…by the police…
…Or actually I stopped the police, not the other way around, haha.
They didn’t say I couldn’t talk about them, so I think I’m free to do so. It’s a free country. You can say whatever you want…well not whatever you want, but you’re free to question anyone no matter how much power they have without physical or legal consequences, in theory at least.
Not like anything mean or “hate speech.” What does “hate” actually mean though? Isn’t it just not wanting to have to do with someone? There’s nothing unethical about that. We can’t be compelled to interact or do anything with other people or agree with other people or only say kind things about other people.
But anyways, there’s no reason for me not to speak about my experiences with these RCMP officers because they were so nice to me anyways. I basically just asked them like how the heck I was supposed to…
Google Maps told me the path that was most logical and safe path was to make a huge curve in the other direction to get to the other side of the highway and then… or was it a highway? Ya it had a median, so I guess that makes it a highway I guess.
But bascially, the city is not friendly to non-car travellers, which most in North America tend to be. It’s a smaller city so it kind of makes sense, but come on. We’ve got to change that. Like I know I’m abnormal in that I would actually even consider what I’m doing right now…
Well, to be completely upfront, I’m not completely forced to do this. There are other steps I could’ve taken rather than attempting to walk 15 kilometres from my Airbnb to a rural airport to catch a 5:55am flight.
I could’ve sought help but basically I’m strapped for cash is the issue and I didn’t want to bother to ask anyone at this time and since it’s my own fault. I’m strapped for cash because what some people might call stupid, I call “investment”… or I have reasons. I don’t even realize them, I don’t even understand them all myself, but I have a plan. I know where I’m going, basically. As I do right now, literally: to the airport.
The police people, the RCMP, the kind neighbourhood policeman and policewoman, gave me directions - well actually the only directions they gave me was to just follow this one road the whole way to get to the airport. And so, I was thinking, since I’m kind of in this YouTuber phase right now… I like YouTube, I like Google, good company, lotta heart.
YouTube’s owned by Google, which Alphabet is the parent company of, I guess. I like it because it has an office in Kitchener and I guess I see it as being… well it’s one of the biggest companies in the world I guess and it’s important for humankind. It has been for the last like 20 years or whatever, 30 maybe? It’s one of the biggest, if not THE biggest and most influential companies in the history of humankind. At least recently. Or all of humankind? I don’t know.
But what I like about it is well… you can consider the ethical issues with it but basically they… Uh, no, actually, I’m not going to talk about their business model because I want to work for them eventually, I want to try to like…
Well actually, basically, I’m a contractor right now in that I’m putting my content on their site and hoping it generates income eventually. But I do think it would be a very awesome company to work for. Like their Kitchener office seems like a really cool place since I delivered there everyday when I was working for FedEx this past summer. I was always at the desk right out side their state-of-the-ark complimentary cafeteria for employees. But sadly, I was not an employee of them. So close, yet so far.
Um, where was I going with all this? Well, I’m going to the airport, I know that for sure.
Ya, so it’s 2:30am, Prince George, BC. It’s random… well, not random, but like, why wouldn’t you have a better way to get to the airport? I guess they don’t have many flights probably, that’s why. But I don’t understand the idea of putting an airport like 15km or whatever…that’s the distance I was intending, that I was planning to walk now out of the city, 15 kilometres.
Like, it’s a place where everyone needs to go if they want to go anywhere. Prince George is a remote place, like people need to get out of here if they want to…not like move away from here, it’s a good place, from what I’ve seen here, and I think we need to start developing more cities up north in Canada in these more rural areas. With climate change and stuff, I think Canada is going to be developed more north. All the empty space we have that’s unpopulated, I think we’ll eventually have to develop more.
But ya, like why not have a train or something to the airport? Well I guess you have to have people responsible for operating all night then. I could’ve taken a taxi, ya that’s what I would’ve done. But as I said, I have no money to spare right now.
What I was going to say is, I kind of think since I’m doing this YouTube stuff, I might even make all my best pieces of writing into kind of an audio book style or just like talk them out or whatever to give you the same experience as this. Because I think there’s some pretty funny and interesting stories and insights I’ve written down in the past.
And then, like most of these are from 2021 or the years around then. Like it was 2018 when I started that Self-Reflection blog and then that’s when I started in the Arts program at University of Waterloo. So it was kind of like an awakening in that sense.
I guess literally too: that’s when I became kind of “woke” in terms of “woke ideology.” I was taking some courses, very left-wing courses, or at least with professors who pushed those kinds of things. But no, not all of them were, I got some balanced perspectives.
Even the one course with a very left-wing professor was a “Political Ideologies” course and it was very well done to outline and learn from all the different ideologies. So I’m glad I took that.
But I’m not even saying it’s bad to be “left” because it’s just like, you have to be where you have to be.
Is it better to be on the left side of the road or the right when you’re walking?
I always thought left, so you can see the cars or they can see you. But the police officer said it’s best to be on the right. In this specific case, being on the right seemed to feel better. I don’t know, be careful…
Sleep, Synchronicity, and Cognitive Functions
…Whoa, that was crazy, I didn’t even mean to make that an analogy about left-wing, and right-wing political views, I was literally just talking about my walk right now. There must be something to Jung’s sychronicity thing…
So ya, it’s 2:30am or probably 3:00 by now. I don’t know what time it is, but I know I’m not going to get any sleep tonight. But I have a big day tomorrow with all the people I’m meeting and stuff.
Whatever. I used to pull all-nighters all the time when I was studying Computer Science and Business…Well, no that’s not valid justification, I wasn’t healthy then. I need sleep. Or do I?
I don’t know. From what I know, there’s research on this, sleep and stuff but is that just from a corrupt Western medicine perspective? Or is there universality to it? Maybe I’m just trying to find justification for my unhealthiness right now…
But um, wow, this does feel like a dream. Am I dreaming? No, I know I’m not. I know what I’m doing and what I’m not doing. This is real. You can’t see me in the video because it’s dark but you can hear me.
But this is a very surreal, unusual situation. Not many people can say they walked on a rural road in Northern BC to an airport for kilometres after an RCMP car dropped them off on the road in the middle of the night.
So, if you’re just listening, should I make this, should all these things be podcast episodes or like part of Consciousness Prints Podcast?
I don’t want it to be just like my own consciousness shared though, I want other people’s consciousness to be part of it, not just my own.
Maybe I’ll just make it so like my blog is separate from the podcast but it’s still all “Consciousness Prints.” That’s my brand, I guess. I’ll have to get advice on branding and stuff like that.
But ya, I love the fact that nowadays you can just make these kind of things and share them. Like no one would know about this experience and I’d probably forget it eventually if I didn’t record it right now.
Hopefully my phone doesn’t die here. Maybe I’ll just save it here, just to be sure.
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Ok there are two topics here, I’m considering what to bring up first.
I guess, first: How I Met Your Mother. They always make this joke that nothing good happens after 2:00am. Is that true? That was just like for the show, but I’m having a good time now, right?
I remember even when I first went on Twitter back when in Grade 12, one of the first tweets I said was while I was just up laying in bed and I said something like “my most philosophical thoughts are at 2am, why is that the case?”
Like sometimes I think because I’m processing all my thoughts so deeply like this, or when I kind of “therapize” myself while awake at night, isn’t that the same as what sleep and dreams function as?
I need to actually read the book Why We Sleep by Matthew Walker. I bought it but have only read the first few pages. I know there’s still so much unknown about sleep. And there’s so much I don’t know obviously. But I’m interested more about Carl Jung and his dream stuff too.
So how long is it still to the airport? What was I saying?…
Ok, ya like I want to start reading out the blog posts from Consciousness Prints Blog that I did in 2021 when I was living in Ottawa. I was kind of in a weird place mentally then, and emotionally, but a lot of good stuff came out of that I guess. Maybe. Well it’s basically the same situation there that I’m in now.
Like obviously it’s a different setting, a different time, I’m in a different place with my life, a better place now than then for sure. Or just my psyche is at least. But there are still some issues that haven’t been resolved that I was concerned with then.
Maybe if you want to frame it in terms of Myers-Briggs functions, I’ve matured in my… or I’ve kind of developed my inferior functions and shadow functions better, or I’ve learned to control them or use them, or “integrate” them - that’s the term - better.
And then even my cognitive function stack too, with like Extraverted Feeling (Fe) which is something I kind of surpressed before or didn’t always feel confident using because of the gender stereotype thing (women are usually more stereotyped as emotionally expressive even though men have the same emotions).
Ya, that’s why I’m so interested in this kind of stuff. It’s just tough times. But it is for everyone. Everyone suffers. I’m not special. It’s just a part of life. It’s part of growth.
Public Judgment and Personal Flaws
And ya, I think I posted on Instagram tonight that Donald Trump had to go through…like I made some jokes about it - well not jokes really - but a play-on-words kind of thing.
Trump had to “go through fire” to get to where he is now. As he used to say “You’re fired!” or “Ya fi-ed.” Is that how he said it? I don’t know. On whatever show he was on, I never watched it.
I never liked him before or thought highly of him in any way but I think he’s at least in a better place this time than in 2016 because he was just like… I didn’t really know much about him before that, other than just randomly seeing him maybe in movies or whatever. I didn’t really have any idea who he was back the last time he was elected president of the U.S.A.
But like, he was just coming into the really mainstream public eye in 2016 and so when you do that, maybe that’s what you have to go through, “fire.” Maybe that’s what I’m going to go through if I keep putting myself and my thoughts out there like this.
Like when you do that, you’re kind of put through “fire” I guess metaphorically. That’s what I meant by that. You’re judged: your character, everything about you is judged, it’s all there for everyone to see and if you mess up, you make mistakes publicly, everyone knows and all your past mistakes get brought up too. But maybe being judged and put through fire isn’t completely a bad thing. Maybe it’s what’s needed to burn off the pieces that need to be burned off to be the best you can be.
Obviously Trump did some really bad stuff and he should be held responsible for it and he has… well, I don’t know actually, he hasn’t really, he’s got away from it, which isn’t good. I don’t know. That’s the danger in him. He’s not honest. That’s the danger. But he’s blunt at least, he’s authentic in some ways, but he’s also not completely honest.
And ya, that’s scary, for a world leader of his, uh, magnitude. But which leader has been honest? Politicians? Pastors? CEOs? Media leaders? Pff…like what the heck am I saying? Why would I assume he would be honest?
I just wish everyone would have the same approach to life as me and for other people to gain some of the wisdom I have too. Actually, no, maybe that would not be good, and maybe my approach isn’t right, yet at least. I have shadow functions, I have flaws. I’ve made so many mistakes, I’ve hurt people and mistreated people. So I don’t know, maybe I’m not wise and people shouldn’t follow me and what I say. That’s ok.
I hope I’m going in the right direction (literally and figuratively). Let’s just double-check here. Is this the right way? I don’t know. When the police say “it’s a 6 minute drive from here” when they drop you off, you think it’s close, but when you’re walking it…
North American City Planning Criticism and Past Travel Ordeals
This is like, just discriminatory, I’d say!!!
Like the way, it’s set up with no sidewalk?!
Like what if someone who didn’t have money needed to… well you have to have money to travel I guess. Maybe that’s how it’s supposed to be get. “Get off your high horse, bucko!”… Wow, Jordan Peterson has really influenced my inner monologue already and I just signed up for his Academy a few weeks ago.
But like, in my case, like if a guy like me is just trying to get a little business set up, a sidewalk is all you could do for him…argh…
Well, maybe, I’m not smart in how I’m approaching it. Maybe I should be looking for other ways to get funding or whatever, investments, etc. Maybe that’s my problem here. So I don’t have to walk 15 kilometres at 3:00am to get from the Airbnb that was supposed to be closest to the airport…
I tried to go to the WestJet headquarters to ask for a sponsorship deal during my layover in Calgary yesterday between Winnipeg and here but no one was available to talk with me. Which sucked because despite not securing a meeting, I didn’t get back in time for my flight. Ridiculous.
But it all turned out ok because the customer service people from WestJet at the Calgary airport were really nice and transferred my ticket to the next day. Then I ended up going to a Calgary Hitmen WHL game I wasn’t planning to, and filmed a podcast episode with a random guy I met on the C-Train on the way there!
But back to here in Prince George, I just assumed I would be able to walk or transit at least. Like you have an airport, how do you not have transit to go into the city you’re flying in to? It just doesn’t make sense.
It’s the same in Kitchener too. Like in Breslau, they’ve started to have some Flex Bus or whatever. But c’mon, do you want people to use the airport? Like it’s unacceptable how little effort they put into getting people to and from it when it could be such a big economic driver. Charging people $100 or whatever to leave their car in the parking lot isn’t a good strategy in many ways, in my opinion.
Sault Ste. Marie too. I had to pay like $60 for a taxi and then they said “Oh, the payment didn’t go through.” Then I had to tap my debit card again and it actually went through twice and then they said I have to call for a refund and I had to go to the office to talk to them on the other side of the city.
I’m not going to go to the effort for that, what the hell! I’d have to taxi there! You stole my money! Ah, whatever…
*animal appears*
Wildlife, Prayer, and the Universal "I"
…What the heck? What kind of animal is that?
I think it’s just a deer. Should be fine. That’s why I don’t like walking at night. I had deer staring at me from feet away out of the blue multiple times when I was living in Winnipeg. That’s a literal holy shit moment. But it’s just a deer. I’m pretty sure. I’ve handled deer before.
Oh deer.
I have a suitcase, I can use it for self-defence. But wait, I’m Mennonite. “sElF dEfeNcE iS bAd”… At least that’s the way I grew up.
Oh, there’s a sign that says “To Prince George Airport” or it shows a plane at least.
I might have to post this all later. Maybe that’s good, I need to think about what I’m going to post. I guess I could just keep these for my own records. It would be interesting to share though. I wonder how many people would react to this kind of ordeal. Actually, I should. Ya…
Say what you wanna say (in the tune of Sara Beirelles’ song Brave)
*animal appears*
Oh shit. What kind of animal was that? Holy shit. Shit, shit, shit. Ah, now Dustin from Stranger Things has taken me over…
It’s just a deer again. Okay. Deer in the headlights. Literally. Is it me or the deer in this case though?
Why can I not just take a train here? I have to fight off deer and stuff like that. Like why isn’t the flight at a better time…
Ok, ya, this is where I pray I guess.
But like, what does praying do? It’s actually more than just for me isn’t it? Like I just don’t understand prayers. Isn’t the assumption in Christianity or whatever religion that God can hear your thoughts and know everything?
“Please God don’t let me get hit by a car!”
Uh, again, I’m just telling myself “be careful.” Isn’t that the purpose of it?
It’s not that… like God knows your thoughts. God knows… Isn’t there some verse that says God knows everything about you, like every hair on your head or whatever? So why do you have to use your voice and pray then?
Ya, ya, “iT’s ThE rElAtIoNsHiP” I guess. But isn’t the relationship still about God spying on you then?
But like, ya, what is consciousness? What is “the Holy Spirit”? Like what’s that supposed to be?
Jesus was a person out of it, so is he then the Holy Spirit in me too? Is He or It then in all people in other countries or of other religions and cultures then too? Or is there some specific ritual or paper you need? I don’t know.
I wrote something, a blog post, simply called “I.”
“I am the way, the truth…” Like what does the “I” refer to?
I think I posted that earlier. The “collective consciousness”, the “I”, the “universal I”, the “universal Christ.” It’s made for all people. It’s in all people. Or at least it’s available to all people.
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The Good Air Canadian
So how I ended up here now, is, well, I still had probably a kilometer or two to go. But I saw a vehicle coming behind me and I crossed to make sure I was safe and then… Well obviously, they saw me and they stopped, and they were like “do you want a ride?,” and it was very nice.
A woman had a pickup truck, and obviously I could trust her because it’s like, where else would they be going? This is the one road in the middle of nowhere leading to the airport and nowhere else.
So she offered me a ride. She actually works for a competing airline to the one I’m flying with… Well she’s human, she sees me and she doesn’t know what airline I’m flying with. Air Samaritan or something like that is who she worked for. But even if she did know, of course she would pick me up.
When you see someone on the road like that, why would you not pick them up?
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Mark 1:17 NRSV: “And Jesus said to them,