Confusion

Is life about accepting pain and suffering or finding ways to prevent or remove pain and suffering?

Or is it useless to ask such a question, instead of wondering about some universal, objective truth, and assuming there is one, it may be better to ask: should I decide to go about my life in a way where I accept pain and suffering (for myself or others) or should I do what ever I can to try to prevent, avoid, remove it?

I've been watching The Good Place on Netflix, I've been reading Mark Manson's many articles about life purpose, goal-setting, etc, I watched a YouTube video about Modernism vs Postmodernism this morning, and because of all these things I've been looking at I started reading some articles about Friedrich Nietzsche and nihilism because all these things seem to be based on this branch of philosophy or at least make reference to them.

A lot of my life, and a lot of things that are currently occupying my energy and thinking, have to do with finding meaning, making improvements to society or humanity as a whole, or certain sections of it that I'm part of, I've been trying to find a purpose, what I can "contribute" to the world with my life. 

A lot of this comes from my Mennonite Christian upbringing as well: we are to try to work towards bringing "the Kingdom of God"/"the Kingdom of Heaven" to Earth, the "new creation" or at least live in a way that models what this kind of world/kingdom would be like and eventually when we die or the world comes to an end this ideal world will be realized. ​

Is this just delusional thinking? Am I doing more harm than good by trying to live my life this way? Is there such thing as "good" and "harm" or is it all just relative, subjective, is it all just based on human emotions which are inexplicable. 

Even if there is a "Kingdom of God"/"Kingdom of Heaven"/"new creation" does it mean in this place there is no pain and suffering or is it about acceptance of it and using it for good?

I'm still feeling Directionless. Is it just because of the state I'm in right now, in an isolation room, living at my parent's house again, global pandemic still going strong, not engaged in a lot of social groups or relationships outside my family right now, in debt, don't have any definite plans about what to do to make money now or in the future, engaged in some complicated, confusing situations that I'm not sure what my responsibility is or if I made the right choices?

Is this just life, is this pain, suffering, confusion, just a necessary part of it - is this what I need to overcome to achieve joy, or a "kingdom-life" or "enlightenment" or should I just not think so much about everything?

Will I look back at this post some day with some increased wisdom and just chuckle at this state of confusion I'm in?